Disturbing call from the father of my child whom kidnapped Sebastian….

As I try to keep my composure from the phone call I just got off with. I’m walking into my job with tears in my eyes and a heavy heart based off the incriminating incredibly disturbing and heart-wrenching conversation of my lifetime. This man who has so blindly taken everything from me completely wrong in every aspect of what he says based off absolutely no facts, other than the lies. He refuses to look at my emails explaining the truth, he refuses to look through the case file that explains the abuse in the foster home where he says our son gained most of his abilities that he has now. Whereas everything that Sebastian has gained through my time raising him is endless as far as creativity extremely smart beyond his years speaks well and is incredibly karizmatik funny and extremely a good kid. He’s taking all of that away from me and telling me that all of those things came from the abusive foster home which he will not admit was ever abusive, even though it’s documented in CPS is files numerous times that he refuses to look through.my son’s father is creating a serious situation for the long run that will involve my son being disturbed mentally incapacitated as far as evolving into a better person with a family that loves him because of all of the confusion abandonment and wars that went on in his young age between his family members his mom and his dad and the Foster family that are also family members that he was abused in. Brandon has absolutely no idea what he’s talking about he refers to our past more than the present he’s accusing me of using drugs because I have a improv comedy website on YouTube that’s literally g-rated and hilarious and that’s what he’s basing me being on drugs off of. It’s literally something to pass the time because I’m going through turmoil and if I don’t do something that makes me laugh and gives me pleasure suches making funny videos with my father who’s also sober I believe I should have that right because otherwise I’m losing all strength I’m losing the ability to hang on I’m getting closer and closer to falling into despair and I cannot allow myself to go down that route. My son needs need to be strong he wants to come home and yet he is not allowed to speak to me. In my experience the reason I believe my son is being held for me is because he absolutely wants to come home and will not say things that his father will agree with probably the opposite and the longing that I have the heartache that I have and this year undeniable pulling to my only child is breaking me down destroying my positive energy because it feels as if everything I do falls on deaf ears everything I put out there is ignored all of the work that I’ve done for this case has literally been ignored. I’m not sure what steps to take next but I haven’t been able to speak to my son this year his father is keeping him from me I was excited so I answer the phone thinking my son would be on the phone and lo and behold it was as abusive father who will not admit any of his faults who has all of our past construed into thinking that I was the bad guy he supported us the lies go on they were documented in my CPS case I was deemed a bad mother based off the lies that were said about me over and over and over and I have to live with that because I’m stuckin a system based off values in laws and rules to protect child parental rights and completely revised the family so they can be reconnected not pawned off to other parent that has been absent not adopted out and certainly not being kept from on any level of safety sanctity survival loved at this point my son thinks I abandoned him. Unthinkable things are probably being said about me and it has absolutely done nothing for m to be still a positive thinking happy-go-lucky posting funny videos on YouTube that make me feel better going through all this I need something to keep me happy and it’s being used against me because I’m apparently making videos that are drug-related in his narrow mind, because they’re funny there comedy their improv their silly they’re goofy their g-rated but anything that can relate me to being on a substance regardless of if it’s marijuana that I use for my medicine and to keep grounded and keep happy nothing is going to stop him from trying to keep my son from me; because he believes he’s in the right. I’m reaching out again right now just to give a testimony of what just happened as it happened in while it’s still fresh in my mind because I have absolutely no doubt in my mind that my son will and is going to come home I just don’t feel very happy whenever I get off the phone with his father he has never been supportive he’s always made me feel like a horrible horrible waste of a person the way he speaks to me the way he acts the way he portrays his friends view of me is absolutely despicable and all that I can say is the friends that I talk to, that he knows , that I know , have literally backed me up on him being a bad father his nickname when I met him was “Evil” and all that has happened in between was a couple small mistakes that I’ve paid for and he made many mistakes that he will not admit to especially the one where I supported him throughout our entire relationship but that was noted as the opposite. And it was also noted that I never wanted to be a mother, wrong!!! Coincidentally but it wasn’t noted in there that he was physically abusive to me and his ex-girlfriend and my son is now living in a home with him and his current girlfriend being exposed to that and not being told what happened to his mother except she abandon him how good is that to a blooming budding young child be forced to live one place taken from his mother abused in the foster home which is being denied by his father as well as dad will not listen to reason he won’t let me speak he talks over me he yells at me he absolutely shows me no respect and when I tell him that he’s alienating our son which is a federal offense in some countries he laughs at me and tells me he’s doing the right thing because his is clearly a better parent than I can ever be, because i messed up our son. The opposite is true our son is amazing because of the way I raised him he has no flaws his characteristics his creativity, ambitions and he eats well, are all because of me; and my son’s father wants to deny that and say that it’s all because of the foster home. In which our relatives, that have been documented in CPS files numerous times, as being the reason for Sebastian’s emotional distress his issues with a lot of things came from Jen’s house he was physically abused by his younger cousin he was threatened by the mother Foster mother who is my cousin’s wife she was always speaking about me in negative curse words in cps’s files it claims that she reported she would kill me with no hesitation of what was going to be her punishment in front of my son so my son was scared of her the whole time he live there and CPS messed up didn’t follow any rules didn’t follow regulations and all I did was raise my son to the best of my ability I move to Oregon to get sober I had one relapses I’m completed all of my courses to ensure that I didn’t have a relapse. WHAT screwed me the most was when I went to court for my dependency hearing the case worker had illegally already moved my son out of the state without any court order or locating to the state notifying anyone involved that might be able to do something about it and so when the court hearing happened what my case worker gave the judge was something that made him believe that I did absolutely nothing in order to get my son back and basically told me that I was a loser and I had none of the qualifications of being a good mother based off the fact that I had not tried to complete any of the progress associated programs that I was deemed to program to finish which was also false. I wanted to put all this down before it was gone from my memory I’m sorry if I was not uplifting in this posting but I’m coming from a place of complete sadness and I believe this is probably the one text part of me the one story posted with complete emotion speaking from feelings not feeling supported not feeling comforted and just feeling absolute despair over where my son is living in what he’s being subjected to and the fact that he is not allowed to speak to me come. I did however just locate his address that’s been suppressed by means of a little bit of help from my friends if there’s anyone out there that can help a with maybe trying to connect me with some source of resources that may help me extract my son from where he has been held alienated and kidnapped basically not even filed in the system where he lives, I would greatly appreciate any resources or any type of help in that manner thank you for listening I appreciate if you could share my petition and sign it that would be of much help to me I appreciate you all and I’m grateful for having this blog and people that listen.

Personal Guidance from an experienced teacher

I would like to help others decode the verbage DHS /CPS uses to confuse us. They have many tricks up their Versace sleeves. I have been through the worst possible situation; and if I knew what I was reading, or being told by the public defenders, it would have empowered me. If I only knew that case workers lie, cut and paste made up nasty things about us, into our files, misconstrued evidence, or lack of in most cases. “The government officials have immunity”, that’s not always true. I want to educate you during a one on one Skype meeting; and I will help you work through your candy coded file. Hopefully to empower you to make correct moves that will be educated and thought out, to put you in the driver’s seat. I will follow up, and each session there will be a charge, but I will send you an email with the information we go over, if possible, some resources, and a written summary via email. This will give you the strength and confidence to conquer the stubborn system. Because knowledge is power after all. Blessings!

*Surprise, Surprise*

I have been lucky enough to have a lawyer take my case. My son’s past psychologist is an advocate for abused children, especially that are involved with CPS. I have kept in contact with this angel. He tried to help me when Sebastian was still in the state. Nobody would listen, nobody responded to any of the documents he wrote on our behalf. He flew into Oregon from California, in his own jet. He then spent time doing a full mental evaluation on both my father and I, write full reports, and all on his own dime. He attended the dependency hearing, and since the judge wanted nothing to do with me, this doctor was never asked to testify. Because the crocked judge never even mentioned, “the child’s best interests”, or say the words, ” the child’s well being”, he did not even say his name. The hearing was about Sebastian’s best interests, and about my progress. So why would the judge completely ignor his civil duties? Why would he deny me due process? He did not look my way, or address me at all. Except when he threatened me, while yelling. I spoke without asking my public defender if I could. Other than the one time that Mr. Bucher yelled at me; he did not address me, speak to me, about me, or even asked if anyone with me wanted to testify. He denied me of my civil rights and did not acknowledge any of my progress or speak to me. This extremely unpleasant experience was completely useless, my case worker, and my son’s father’s lawyer both committed purgery. My case worker may as well have been working against me. She decieved the court, and was not asked to provide documentation of the information she was lying about. I was given the opportunity to speak, and when I gave my testimony I spoke about many things at great lengths. So much so, that the very savvy Judge Bucher decided that we should reconvene, a later date, to discuss all the things I brought up. One was a discrepancy about my services completed. My lying case worker said I did not finish my services, however; months prior, she asked my counselor if I could stay involved in services until my case was over. I explained that was the reason I did not have discharge papers for my counseling services. The next hearing was held three weeks later. This hearing did not cover anything important, it was not a time to discuss my progress, as Judge B. explains at the opening of the hearing. It literally was held to pass some more time, because the case worker committed an interstate abduction by moving my son to his father’s care. She did that without contacting me, the court, or my public defender. The Judge did not care that the case worker was in the wrong, because she, “didn’t know it was wrong”, and admitted that she will not do it again. I found out recently, both case workers that handled my case no longer work for DHS, and the supervisor assigned to my case was moved to a different branch. I feel as if it is growing closer to redemption time. The dispicable acts that were committed in my case will all be brought to the surface and dealt with. My case is in appealate court, and my lawyer is working on bringing my son home. He was moved to NC from OR. He has been alienated from me, and his father is going to be surprised to find out all this was a big lie. The last year of my life was all made up to make me look like a bad mother. Something in which I have never been, and never will be. The tides are turning and I am feeling very positive. I AM COMING FOR YOU ALL! Remember when I kept saying that this is all false? It’s about time, for you all that wronged me and my son, are held responsible for the severe pain you allowed my wonderful son to endure. The “family” I use to have, were all wrong. It is all going to be known, and my son will be returned home by the time he finishes 3rd grade. Then we can move somewhere, change our names, and disappear from the lives of the ones that turned on me. I feel like this experience has brought me closer to the reality of the horrid actions that CPS gets away with daily. I know what I’m meant to do now, I found my calling and I am greatful to have been able to figure that out trough such pain and suffering. I am going to put all I can, into advocating, and educating the masses of this destructive force of evil sweeping across the globe. Join me in my journey to expose the truth, hold those accountable, and hopefully give others hope and strength to deal with CPS in their own ways.

Wake Up!

The truth is out there, more people need to tell their stories of CPS Corruption, judicial ignorance, case worker purgery, and injustice to family unity. How are we suppose to protect our kids from THIS too? I want to help advocate for families struggling with CPS (Can’t Protect Shite) to expose the truth about the corrupt system based on “children’s best interests. This is a sad reality that plagues the entire world. How easy you can have your life ripped from your arms, your heart ripped from your chest; and your life flashes before your eyes. All it takes is a little bull -honky, sociopathic tendencies, and a little nudge from the dark side to destroy someone else’s family. Once they are in, you don’t get away without a fight. You literally have to fight for your children or they will walk all over you wihout thinking twice. False allegations are as good as facts to most CPS case workers, less “work” and more money. The rights of the custodial loving parent seems to mean less than securing our children’s futures, and setting them up for success; to take our places at the helm. Something so cold and scary is at each families back door, Crouching in the darkest shadows. False allegations, non substantiated lies, backed by uneducated, mentally unstable, and heartless people. I lost my son illegally, and I’m doing all I can to get the word and the truth out to the world. I will stop at nothing till my son is home with me. I am justified in my writing, because I’m telling the entire truth. I am going to expose the truth, give the facts, and hopefully educate people about the severity of this epidemic. I am supported by an expert child psychologist who is urging me to go public with my story. This is the beginning of my process to show the public the uneasy corrupt system we are fooled into trusting. Don’t stop fighting, you know what needs to be done, so do something, anything! Until the masses come forth with their stories, this destructive force silently follows each and every parent, it is not picky. You may be in this mess for a good reason, but their is never a good reason to separate a child from a safe, loving parent; especially after court services are completed. In my situation, my entire case is a farce, fueled by a manic, sociopathic heartless, empty vessel, I once knew. Join me in my journey to expose CPS Corruption, and hold all responsible. I lost everything just months after I moved to Oregon to start anew. Within 1.5 months, for the first time in my life, I had 3 calls into the hotline with false allegations that brought hell to my doorstep. I trusted in my family, and was literally disowned by them, back turned on me in my lowest, most emotionally damaging experience of my life, and nobody bats an eye. “CPS doesn’t mess up that bad!” That is the disillusioned view of anyone that refuses to educate themselves. Family=Unconditional love. I learned the hard way, that statement means jack. Do yourself a solid, keep your grudge, and passive aggression out of the lives of other parents, for the child’s sake. If there is nothing to substantiate a case, no abuse, no cause for alarm, all you have left are empty lies. But in this society, feeding the pig faces, and summoning the LOST monster are priorities over our children. How upset my grandma would be if she were still here. Don’t give up parents!


There are not too many differences between the Natzi SS officers, and CPS……… Talk amongst yourselves, I’m feeling vaclempt.

Sad little face, I miss you more than the moon misses the tides. I will never stop searching till you are home with me and unconditional love. This is a test my love, be strong and have faith, mommas coming to get you, as soon as I find a way!


If there is some organization, officials, agency, or PI that will assist me in finding my child, it would be so great. I need help, I have not stopped sending certified letters to government officials. My case was closed months ago so I can not get any answers out of CPS. The recieving state claims he is not there, even though the case worker I spoke to signed off on my son’s father’s home study. When I reached out to my son’s father, Brandon Soto, with my concerns…..Brandon told me I crossed the line and said that caused me to loose the courtesy of allowing our son contact with his mom, and only custodial parent his entire life. Am I missing something??

Help me reach my son!

Is there anyway, or anyone that knows how I can get my father’s son in contact with me????? There is no help from Oregon, no help from NC, and it’s been months. There was no case opened in the receiving state, so there isn’t any case worker that is responsible for my son’s wellbeing. That means I have no recourse. The FBI wasn’t helpful, the cops don’t deal with the Gestapo, and his father is a liar, criminal and tup till now, has been absent. Now he is trying to stay under the radar by not allowing contact; because he’s afraid like a quivering beat up abused animal in the corner. He is scared that my son, who wants to come home, will say something to incriminate him, tell me where he lives, or tell me what’s really going on there. Who do I contact to reach my son?! I guess I would have to call CPS on him???? Then I would have to hope that all goes well after, I don’t want Sebastian back in the system and I live so far away, it is a touchy subject. If anyone knows where I may be able to stay in NC, I would fly there asap to start working on locating them. I need help, I have not spoken to my broken hearted little 8 year old since last year. His father has never done anything like this, and I never kept those two apart. His father never paid child support or kept in contact with us, then gets mad at me when I have to move over and over, due to unaffordable housing, and, making sure we never once slept in a shelter or in my car. I’ve been working my ass off to keep us above water, all on my own. Now, I’m looked at as a bad mom, because my family doesn’t know about CPS corruption. So I’ve lost their support as well as every other good thing in my life. Please, if anyone knows how I can reach my son, or who to contact to find him, and make his father contact me, I would gladly accept the help. I have tried all the legal ways to go about this…….

Patience and Love

I can not express how much pain this experience has caused me. Not to mention, how I usually am, has been drastically changed. I feel less joy, I feel jaded, I don’t believe in humanity as a whole, I also don’t hold family in high regard since they all betrayed me. However; my love and dedication to my son and to bring him home, has only grown stronger. I know that justice will prevail and Love is greater than deceit. No matter how much energy and time I’ve wasted to get attention about my situation, only to hit a wall. And no matter how many ignor me or lie to me….I will continue to press forward. My love is my son, he is my heart and all I live for. He makes me feel alive, worthy, and this entire experience, when Sebastian is home, will prove to me that I am worthy of being his mother. Nothing comes for free, I believe that you must work for what you have. Nothing worth having, comes free. My life has drastically changed more than a couple times. This is just a glitch in time, that will be in the past soon. I try to live in the now, try to focus on what I can do, and put my trust in the universe, and the overall balancing of it all. All you need is love, I have faith in the universe and know my son will never stop believing in me brining him home. I am greatful for the power of the web, and hope someone wants to help me publish my story. It has caused me to loose everything, unfortunately money is the only reason I’m in this position. I was a target, being a single mother, and low income. Without the help of Dr. Gilbert Kliman, and my dad, I would have been a lot less optimistic, and may have not been able to make it this far. Not a day goes by that I don’t try to reach my son. His father is ignoring my calls. He is afraid that his lies will be exposed and that my son will say something to me that will prove his story is false. But I will never stop fighting to bring my son home. I’m not sure who thought I would have given up by now, but this is one strong mother. I appreciate anyone who reads my blogs, I am greatful for any information shared with me, and I sympathize with anyone else going through anything remotely close to what I’m dealing with.