Wake Up!

The truth is out there, more people need to tell their stories of CPS Corruption, judicial ignorance, case worker purgery, and injustice to family unity. How are we suppose to protect our kids from THIS too? I want to help advocate for families struggling with CPS (Can’t Protect Shite) to expose the truth about the corrupt system based on “children’s best interests. This is a sad reality that plagues the entire world. How easy you can have your life ripped from your arms, your heart ripped from your chest; and your life flashes before your eyes. All it takes is a little bull -honky, sociopathic tendencies, and a little nudge from the dark side to destroy someone else’s family. Once they are in, you don’t get away without a fight. You literally have to fight for your children or they will walk all over you wihout thinking twice. False allegations are as good as facts to most CPS case workers, less “work” and more money. The rights of the custodial loving parent seems to mean less than securing our children’s futures, and setting them up for success; to take our places at the helm. Something so cold and scary is at each families back door, Crouching in the darkest shadows. False allegations, non substantiated lies, backed by uneducated, mentally unstable, and heartless people. I lost my son illegally, and I’m doing all I can to get the word and the truth out to the world. I will stop at nothing till my son is home with me. I am justified in my writing, because I’m telling the entire truth. I am going to expose the truth, give the facts, and hopefully educate people about the severity of this epidemic. I am supported by an expert child psychologist who is urging me to go public with my story. This is the beginning of my process to show the public the uneasy corrupt system we are fooled into trusting. Don’t stop fighting, you know what needs to be done, so do something, anything! Until the masses come forth with their stories, this destructive force silently follows each and every parent, it is not picky. You may be in this mess for a good reason, but their is never a good reason to separate a child from a safe, loving parent; especially after court services are completed. In my situation, my entire case is a farce, fueled by a manic, sociopathic heartless, empty vessel, I once knew. Join me in my journey to expose CPS Corruption, and hold all responsible. I lost everything just months after I moved to Oregon to start anew. Within 1.5 months, for the first time in my life, I had 3 calls into the hotline with false allegations that brought hell to my doorstep. I trusted in my family, and was literally disowned by them, back turned on me in my lowest, most emotionally damaging experience of my life, and nobody bats an eye. “CPS doesn’t mess up that bad!” That is the disillusioned view of anyone that refuses to educate themselves. Family=Unconditional love. I learned the hard way, that statement means jack. Do yourself a solid, keep your grudge, and passive aggression out of the lives of other parents, for the child’s sake. If there is nothing to substantiate a case, no abuse, no cause for alarm, all you have left are empty lies. But in this society, feeding the pig faces, and summoning the LOST monster are priorities over our children. How upset my grandma would be if she were still here. Don’t give up parents!



There are not too many differences between the Natzi SS officers, and CPS……… Talk amongst yourselves, I’m feeling vaclempt.

Sad little face, I miss you more than the moon misses the tides. I will never stop searching till you are home with me and unconditional love. This is a test my love, be strong and have faith, mommas coming to get you, as soon as I find a way!


If there is some organization, officials, agency, or PI that will assist me in finding my child, it would be so great. I need help, I have not stopped sending certified letters to government officials. My case was closed months ago so I can not get any answers out of CPS. The recieving state claims he is not there, even though the case worker I spoke to signed off on my son’s father’s home study. When I reached out to my son’s father, Brandon Soto, with my concerns…..Brandon told me I crossed the line and said that caused me to loose the courtesy of allowing our son contact with his mom, and only custodial parent his entire life. Am I missing something??

Help me reach my son!

Is there anyway, or anyone that knows how I can get my father’s son in contact with me????? There is no help from Oregon, no help from NC, and it’s been months. There was no case opened in the receiving state, so there isn’t any case worker that is responsible for my son’s wellbeing. That means I have no recourse. The FBI wasn’t helpful, the cops don’t deal with the Gestapo, and his father is a liar, criminal and tup till now, has been absent. Now he is trying to stay under the radar by not allowing contact; because he’s afraid like a quivering beat up abused animal in the corner. He is scared that my son, who wants to come home, will say something to incriminate him, tell me where he lives, or tell me what’s really going on there. Who do I contact to reach my son?! I guess I would have to call CPS on him???? Then I would have to hope that all goes well after, I don’t want Sebastian back in the system and I live so far away, it is a touchy subject. If anyone knows where I may be able to stay in NC, I would fly there asap to start working on locating them. I need help, I have not spoken to my broken hearted little 8 year old since last year. His father has never done anything like this, and I never kept those two apart. His father never paid child support or kept in contact with us, then gets mad at me when I have to move over and over, due to unaffordable housing, and, making sure we never once slept in a shelter or in my car. I’ve been working my ass off to keep us above water, all on my own. Now, I’m looked at as a bad mom, because my family doesn’t know about CPS corruption. So I’ve lost their support as well as every other good thing in my life. Please, if anyone knows how I can reach my son, or who to contact to find him, and make his father contact me, I would gladly accept the help. I have tried all the legal ways to go about this…….

Patience and Love

I can not express how much pain this experience has caused me. Not to mention, how I usually am, has been drastically changed. I feel less joy, I feel jaded, I don’t believe in humanity as a whole, I also don’t hold family in high regard since they all betrayed me. However; my love and dedication to my son and to bring him home, has only grown stronger. I know that justice will prevail and Love is greater than deceit. No matter how much energy and time I’ve wasted to get attention about my situation, only to hit a wall. And no matter how many ignor me or lie to me….I will continue to press forward. My love is my son, he is my heart and all I live for. He makes me feel alive, worthy, and this entire experience, when Sebastian is home, will prove to me that I am worthy of being his mother. Nothing comes for free, I believe that you must work for what you have. Nothing worth having, comes free. My life has drastically changed more than a couple times. This is just a glitch in time, that will be in the past soon. I try to live in the now, try to focus on what I can do, and put my trust in the universe, and the overall balancing of it all. All you need is love, I have faith in the universe and know my son will never stop believing in me brining him home. I am greatful for the power of the web, and hope someone wants to help me publish my story. It has caused me to loose everything, unfortunately money is the only reason I’m in this position. I was a target, being a single mother, and low income. Without the help of Dr. Gilbert Kliman, and my dad, I would have been a lot less optimistic, and may have not been able to make it this far. Not a day goes by that I don’t try to reach my son. His father is ignoring my calls. He is afraid that his lies will be exposed and that my son will say something to me that will prove his story is false. But I will never stop fighting to bring my son home. I’m not sure who thought I would have given up by now, but this is one strong mother. I appreciate anyone who reads my blogs, I am greatful for any information shared with me, and I sympathize with anyone else going through anything remotely close to what I’m dealing with.

Why me?

It only takes just 2 People to ruin your entire life. Liars got away with distorting others view of me. So severely, that now, my life situation as it stands; is a nightmare. One that was made up, nobody stood up for me, turned their backs on me, and allowed my son to disappear. How could anyone deserve such torture? I have always lived true, honestly, compassionately and for the betterment of my sons life. His well being meant NOTHING to the state of oregon. I will spend the rest of my days exposing this horrific reality. I am not alone in this feeling. Even though it seems too hard to believe, it will show through sooner than later. I can only keep my head up and faith in truth, and Justice. Anybody that knows me and my son, would completely throw up if they could see what has become of me now, because of CPS. I have been marked, and documented as being the opposite of who I am. Brandon had the audacity to say that I never wanted to be a mother. His lack of compassion for his (cancer surviving) son’s mother, and disregard for his son’s plea to have me in his life shows signs of sociopathic tendencies, and bad . And now has my son, just after he was forced to dwell in the care of an alcoholic bipolar lying and abusive manic. What have I done to deserve this position?

Observations and notes about my dependency hearing, day 1.

Juvenile Justice Court Hearing re Sebastian Soto 08/17/2018

Observations and notes by Gilbert Kliman, M.D.
As a child psychiatrist and forensic expert, I am guided by official information from court systems. The following informational quotes excerpted from the Oregon Judicial Branch web site are relevant to my experience and observations in the matter of Andrea Apple and her quest for exercise of her parental rights and the matter of the custody of Sebastian Soto.
I entered the courtroom thinking Oregon law on the priority of a child’s best interests would be
guiding the court’s hearing. I had confirmatory information for my thoughts, from Oregon family law, which I quote from the State’s Judicial web site:
State of Oregon web site. Judicial Branch:
In Oregon, as long as paternity has been established, the laws on custody and parenting time are the same for both married and unmarried parents. The best interest of the child is the main focus in making decisions about custody and parenting time.

Custody (Legal Decision Making)
There are two common types of custody in Oregon: joint custody and sole custody. The type of custody parents have determines who will have final authority to make major decisions. Major decisions include, but are not limited to the child’s religion, education, health care, and where the child lives.

Factors a Judge Will Consider

A judge’s primary consideration in deciding how to award custody is the best interest of the child. To decide the best interest of a child, the court will look at these factors:
• The emotional ties between the child and other family members
• The interest of the parents in and attitude toward the child
• The desirability of continuing an existing relationship
• The abuse of one parent by the other
• The preference for the primary caregiver of the child, if the caregiver is deemed fit by the court
• The willingness and ability of each parent to facilitate and encourage a close and continuing relationship between the other parent and the child

Oregon law requires a parenting plan in court cases involving parenting time. The parenting plan may be general or detailed. It must say how much time, at a minimum, the children will spend with the each parent. ORS 107.102

The judge convened proceedings at 2:15PM. He noted the absence of the mother and the presence of the father on a remote phone connection which he knew about in advance and urged Ms. Lauren Fields to verify. The father announced his presence. His honor stated the case was clear. Only one parent is needed for a child and there is one parent available. He is satisfied that the mother is clearly not fit for parenting as she has failed to show completion of a drug abuse rehabilitation program and has had two urinalyses which “show the presence of opioids and methamphetamine”.

After the case appeared to have been decided according to the above statements by the judge, Andrea Apple, the mother, arrived at about 2:30. She appeared out of breath and flustered, apologizing that her employment had prevented her being on time. This impressed me as her lacking help from her public defender to prepare her by understanding of how crucial and how much was at stake in the legal proceeding. I thought that because the mother has gone through tremendous efforts to be literally alive for her son, despite metastatic carcinoma. The mother’s AA sponsor arrived a few moments later stating that parking had been unavailable.
Together, these foolish acts of late appearance made me think of how the mother’s public defender had been markedly reluctant to have me give psychiatric evaluation input. Perhaps he did not know the mother was a victim of domestic violence, that the father had struck her during the child’s pregnancy, and had knocked her down and never supported the child. Perhaps he did not know she was like a deer in the headlights if the judge would be aggressive, or angry at her, as the judge was. Later he stated he wanted to be excused from the case because he had a conflict of interest, cementing my concern that the mother was being weakly represented. This was her third public defender, none of whom had discussed her psychiatric status or the child’s with me despite the mother telling them of my hundreds of hours of knowledge about the mother and child.

The mother requested to make a statement and his honor instructed her to discuss that request with her attorney before saying anything to the court. The mother said, “It is only a brief statement”, and “I want to explain”. His honor needlessly, disrespectfully and very angrily said “If you speak again I will have you locked up.” He did not tell her and there was no way she could know that he had already decided and announced the matter was simple because only one parent is needed in Oregon law. He did not mention the best interests of the child. He did not tell her he had already decided and announced moments earlier in her absence that there was sufficient basis for having one parent to be taking care of the child, and that was the father.

His honor soon thereafter allowed the mother’s attorney, Scott Walker, to request the mother be allowed to speak and his honor allowed the mother to speak. Among her remarks she claimed there were falsehoods in her social service records, and the falsehoods were false statements by a mentally ill foster parent which were taken as facts. This acceptance of the foster mother’s statements was despite observations by a case worker that the foster mother was mentally disturbed, threatening the life of Andrea Apple and making false statements about Andrea in the hearing of Sebastian, statements which were false and upsetting to Sebastian.

Further Ms. Apple reported that she believes her previous attorney misled her into thinking it would help her parental rights case if she stated she had a mental illness rather than stating she had cancer, artificial menopause and anxiety which were being treated. Still further, she reported that Lauren Fields had created a deceptive appearance of noncompletion of Ms. Apple’s treatment. Ms. Fields reportedly requested her therapy program not to close her treatment until the court case had reached a conclusion. Using this self-fulfilling step, social services then noted Andrea was unfit because Andrea had not completed her therapy program.
Ms. Apple also raised the consideration that her mid-summer positive urines were not only given voluntarily but should be considered in light of the oxycodone pain medication and various anesthetics she had just been given as part of intra-abdominal chemotherapy.

Mr. Walker stated his law firm had a conflict of interest and would withdraw from representing Ms. Apple in the case in view of Ms. Apple’s complaint against a member of his firm.

Lauren Fields, social worker, apologized for having removed the child from the state without first notifying the court, the mother’s attorney or the mother. She said she would never let it happen again. His honor made no comment. Ms. Fields added that Sebastian was functioning very well, had a new puppy, and was enjoying school. His honor said that confirmed the benefit of the judicial necessity that only one parent is needed to assign the child’s placement.

Nathan Law, recently assigned as Sebastian’s attorney, stated he also had information that Sebastian was happy in North Carolina and enjoying school and a new puppy.

His honor made prolonged eye contact with all parties except for Andrea Apple. He did make eye contact with her when threatening to lock her up.

His honor did not allow me to testify although Mr. Walker stated I had come from California for that purpose and that I had new findings about Ms. Apple’s condition. I was particularly concerned, though silent, that his honor did not state the child’s best interest were the law’s primary consideration.

I was also concerned that while angry at the mother he did not seem displeased or even acknowledge there had been a major social service error, literally a collusion in what some would call a crime, and some would call child abuse, and some would call cruelty to a cancer recovering mother. They literally colluded in dispatching a child out of state without due process concerning the mother. The judge probably did not know that I had tried to intervene with the Governor’s office and spoke with the Governor’s social service ombudsman to try to prevent this harm to the child. Nor did he seem concerned to hear from me after Mr. Walker stated I had sent a report on Sebastian and his mother to DHHS months ago and had new information from an extensive evaluation yesterday. My silent impression was that the court and social services were close minded concerning the best interests of the now allegedly kidnapped child and markedly prejudiced against the mother. Nothing was said of a positive nature to the mother about her years of single parenting, her struggle to parent despite cancer, chemotherapy, lack of child support from the father, and a near heroic struggle against spinal paralysis. Instead the mother was a target of the court’s and social services’ cold criticism, removal of her child, and threat of instant judicial punishment for her inept plea to be heard. “I will lock you up” seemed the court’s message in more than one way – psychologically and in physical reality.

Court adjourned at 3:00 PM with a plan to renew the hearing on October 5. His honor wishes the attorney general to review concerns about a six month waiting period before an out of state placement in North Carolina can be approved.

After the hearing I asked Mr. Law if he would speak with me and study my findings. I offered to speak with Sebastian by HIPAA compliant videoconference and recommended it is urgent that Sebastian have a North Carolina therapist who is very skilled at hearing a child’s thoughts. I emphasized that Sebastian’s suicidality and the crisis of his losing the care of his mother and going into an unknown person’s care created a high risk situation. It is my opinion that the situation is in large part created by improper and prejudiced activities of social services and the court.

Mr. Law agreed that the child needs mental health services in North Carolina.

I have the opinion that I had not often witnessed such a needlessly cruel, misguided, close-minded and imperiously social services process. Nor had I from a psychiatric expert’s point of view seen such a lack of priority to a child’s psychological, developmental and relational continuity concerns in a family court judicial proceeding. The impression I had of the need to appeal this case is heightened because it is one regarding the best placement for a vulnerable child. He is a child whose suicidal ideation and separation anxiety were documented, who has a life long history of care by his mother and does not have a history of support and care from his father. In my extensive psychiatric and psychometric evaluation of the mother on September 16, 2018 I had found her to be very well functioning and fit for the job of being Sebastian’s custodian. The court had no knowledge and no receptivity to having knowledge of the favorable findings by her treating facility and then by me about the mother. The social service strategy of inducing a delay in her treatment discharge and illegally allowing what seemed to me a kidnapping of the child to another state had been successful. That strategy succeeded in making the mother helpless. Rather than a sharp rebuke for the crime, the father was praised by the judge as well as social services for having gotten the kidnapping victim a puppy and a private school. A selfish family feud in which the child was an emotional and financial pawn was described in my unheard findings. The family feud had been won by the father’s side of the family, without the court being aware of the enabling role by social services in that pathology.

Gilbert Kliman, M.D.
Distinguished Life Fellow
American Academy of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry
Medical Director, The Children’s Psychological Health Center, Inc.