Fear Factor 101

These days it’s hard to think too much about what happened in the past. I think nowadays we are all so use to this secluded lifestyle change,  that we forget about our past. Or is it the opposite? Since this break down of society, whilst amongst the biggest publicized population control attempt of my lifetime. We all have time to focus on what we have been missing. Spending our time handling business otherwise left to the wayside; and perhaps even finishing up, or beginning to write our book. It is a time of reflection, binge eating and Carol Baskin! I have seen the most outrageous things on the mainstream media news that I can only relate to the likes of The Butterfly Project. The ultra hot topic of the season seems to be this flu that has been proven to be synthetic. The research for this, along with other vaccines were paid for by a huge American mogul, and other Deeply involved monsters in masks. So far thier evil plan is working,  the world stopped working. The economy is crashing, people are being traumatized enough to eat what they are being fed. By reportig all deaths, as Covid-19,  regardless of the actual cause, has kept the entire world in a state of fear and anxiety.  Not to mention, broke, pissed off, confused, and still blinded by the simplest fact that Trump is actually the only man helping us.

He is the only thing standing in the way of the corrupt  puppet masters wearing smiles and handing out lollipops filled with razor blades. Under the guise of this plague, our American President is working day and night. Along side the Military, thousands are being rescued from trafficking operations worldwide. No other president has ever done half of what he has accomplished, in only less than 4 years. Other rich and famous leaders, and rulers accross the globe have thwarted thier powerful statute.  To abuse, enslave, buy and sell, sacrifice, and even ingest smaller humans then they. Nothing like that would ever be publicized, or even beleived if one were to have exposed such haneous crimes. It is more publicly talked about than Biden’s dementia right now.  If you know what I am talking about,  and you have heard the horror stories, then you must wonder where all these victims come from….

A disturbing shocker is right in front of your noses. So many wonder why CPS does such a bad job in returning children to thier families. CPS case workers are known liars, and the judges are the gate keepers. Money is more important than our children to these bad actors. And our future is being swept under the rug, gone without a trace, we need a super hero to bring justice. This person has to be stealthy, witty and appear too dumb to know what the heck is really going on. They must also, have much knowledge of businesses and where the big money is accross the land. Money leads to corrupt operations.  They have to be able to move mountains, build walls, and walk with an army following. The mainstream media wants people to hate Trump; it is not that hard to see. That would mean that somehow he must be a threat to “the powers that (hide) be”-hind the curtains.

I hope people think for themselves and stop the madness. The real plague is not the actual disease, it’s fear. Our own stupidity gets us into trouble so often, more often than we let ourselves believe.  Let’s all take part in the awakening, and ascend instead of slipping into submission. Before it is too late to change your mind, make a conscious desicion to research, look into things, make use of your freedoms. The biggest kicker is, all the troubles we have been through and wars, and threats from “terrorists”; all the suppressed healthcare, minimum wages and unfair judicial systems. They have been strategically placed, to scare the masses, to work toward THEIR agenda.  Nothing we have been taught is actually real. Stop allowing this insanity, walk on your own feet, listen with your two ears and pay attention to what is not obvious. It is going to be the future of our species that will thank us for being smart enough to make our own desicions. Many people accept the way things are, because they don’t want to know the truth. Others are scared to find out, so they don’t seek it out.  Then there are the others that know the truth, and no matter how much opposition faces us, we stand up tall with our guardians and angels around us, and bring forth, with positive energy, to tell everyone that knowledge is power! Don’t give up humanity! You are made up of pure love, and capible of anything.  You all want to jump to higher dimension,  right? It is a lot easier then you may have thought, just try. Be kind, and think before you make decisions that will be in motion for 4 years , more or less. Stay positive and believe in a better world, think about happiness, love everyone and realize that we are all one, and everything has consciousness.  If you effect someone or something else, you are effecting yourself. OUCH!

Our Future is Being Stifled

Why is the funding for our children, always the last thing on the minds of lawmakers and the like?

Are most influential people and lobby persons with power; insane, ignorant, pediphiles or worst?

The very sad truth is, all of the above. It as if these inhumane zombies are souless, soulsuckers. Most are child-less, love-less, lonely bullies. Someone obviously never loved these poor children, or someone stole their snack on the playground too many times. One too many times, is all it takes to turn an innocent being, into a sociopathic, revenge seeking ‘living weapon’. Once the time came to become a grown-up, these meat sacks had to conform to fit in; and figure out how to become like everyone else. In essence, blend in and mask their true identities. This enabled them to get close to others, give the impression that they can be trusted, and possibly even appear human. The intent of revenge still whirls about in their tummies and takes up most of their mindless chatter. They are never at peace, they do not sleep at night, and nobody really knows them deep to the core. They are shells of human beings, only being fueled by negativity and thoughts of empowerment at any cost. The fact of the matter is, this is so many “people” walking the earth nowadays, you usually would not know them from someone that has a soul. The discuize goes so deep, their own families never even see how truly broken they are, and may even be the cause of their despair.

It is a sad and extremely hard to think about, individuals described above are running things around the globe. Shit is so convoluded, covered up, lied about, and misinforming; that the people usually have no clue what the hell is going on. Or why the things that happen, are able to continue under lawful inspection. The justice system has been flawed for so long, and we protest and fight, and stand up, and get shit on. They are intimidated by numbers and since we out number these creatures with human costumes, it is inevitable what must be done. EVERYTHING THAT WE CAN! Do not give up your rights, do not stop fighting, and never bow down to them. Question everything, don’t eat what they feed you. Think for yourself and keep a close eye on your children and research, learn, and prepare. Never stop standing up for your beliefs never stop loving yourself and always teach and prepare your children and family about survival and self love. The world we have grown up with has been cold and sufficating. We have grown use to this abuse, and for a while, excepted it as the norm. It is not benefiting anyone on any level. The goal is to ascend in conciousness. That is the biggest fear that the yellow bellied bullies have. The concioussness that we share, is strong, spread love. That is power, knowledge is also power. And having a secure foundation and promoting truth, love, and curiosity; will strengthen the lives of our children that will seed the ground for a possitive generation, who will be leaders one day. Is that not the goal of all parents these days? To give our kids what we did not have growing up. To help them feel secure and loved so they are self confident and open to love and question the answers. That is the generation that thinks on a level unknown to the “rulers” of today. Our kids are their worst enemies……I just realized that is the main focus in their feble, distraught, and regressed mindsets. To destroy all hope for the future, by terrorizing our children and ourselves. That is main reason that so many children are missing, lost to the system, caught up in corruption, and not given the funding they need to succeed. These grown ass “persons” in charge of the laws, ignore the importance of strengthening families. And for once, I finally understand it. Understanding why, is the first step.

I will be writing again, it is very useful in figuring things out that are major questions and concerns work themselves out as you think and put it out there into the universe. I encourage everyone to write more and think more. Stay blessed, sanitize your surroundings, and minds, and wash your hands. This flu is getting more attention than it deserves……So what are they diverting our attention away from???????? Any thoughts?

Help me take CPS to court without a lawyer.

This law firm has rescinded their commitment to my case. I am not located in Washington, where the firm is based out of. I was not able to convince their law team to take my case, in a state where some of their best lawyers can work in (Oregon). Due to my case not involving being sexually abused in the foster home. So, I am not sure how to go about the next step, but I filed a Tort Claim almost two years ago. This stated my intent to sue CPS, weather it is done on my own, or with help; I intend to make my story heard. I have so much documented proof of CPS abusing power, stripping our civil rights, and never being concerned about the child’s best interests. I have copies of my CPS case file, transcripts from court, and anything needed to get a settlement offer agreed upon, rather than going to court. My case was unfounded, and dismissed. However; my public defender made me admit to having anxiety and menopause, which the court turned into mentally unstable and took my child from me. Based off no proof of any concern involving myself and my child. I have not spoken to Sebastian in over a year. His father is committing parental alienation, after an interstate abduction. Any assistance would be so amazing, can somebody please point me in a direction? I already did all the footwork, kept extremely detailed notation, and have documented proof of indisputable issues CPS carried through with. And how they ignored my concerns, during my case, in the foster home. I was ignored, lied to, lied about, and still; nobody in my entire family will talk to me at all, because they don’t believe how CPS can mess up so badly. I have to clear my name in court to even have a normal life again. Help Please!


Justice will be Mine!

The time has come, the law firm that has agreed to take my case; discusses specifics this week. I will have a timeline, and plan of action figured out pretty soon. My holidays are gloomy still, but just around the corner, is hope. I am moving out of this corrupt state, closer to Sebastian this next year. I feel positive energy about 2020, it is looking brighter around the corner now. I am hoping that if it actually goes to court, that there will be a huge outcome of supporters and media. I’ll keep y’all posted.

Sleepless in Oregon…

I have everything I need, except money to reunite us. Nobody has donated to my cause and I have attempted 3 separate times, to raise money for my displaced child. I have found no support in any capacity on the renegade mission this time either. The case will be dealt with neatly, organized, planned with presicion, and lawfully; when I make it back to Oregon with Sebastian.

And unfortunately, since I’m a stage IV cancer survivor, on a fixed and limited income; affording such an endeavor, (even though it is the only time I’ve ever reached out for help) it falls on deaf ears. Not ever have I been one to need assistance or have I been in the position where I’m begging for someone just to read my posts. It has been very hard to comprehend, especially being that everyone I knew, almost, was in a dilutional mindset focused on being AGAINST ME. And those planted opinions of me ( again….completely out of character for me) were only based off lies. And never proven heresay. Plus, all four of my case workers false reporting, a discraceful judicial system; that had three different public defenders attempt to handle my case.

IN CONCLUSION—-DHS/CPS STEALS CHILDREN. AND IF THE CASES CARRY OUT ALL THE WAY THROUGH TO THE CHILD BEING KIDNAPPED, (SENT AWAY) WITH NO CONCERN FOR CHILDREN’S WELL BEING. THEY ARE ALL ASSURED MORE BLOOD MONEY. **Currently the seemingly “seperate entities”, PUBLIC DEFENDERS,JUDGES, and the Case workers, ALL MAKE THE MOST MONEY PER CASE, ONLY WHEN IT IS CARRIED OUT COMPLETELY. Regardless of any positive changes from parents, in the interim. Regardless how I was abused by the system, discriminated against, and lied about over and over..I still lost my son, illegally.

Legally, and lawfully, my case was fabricated, I was placated, and made a fool of, my family has all ignored my plea’s, discraced me and forgotten about the person that use to be loved unconditionally. They have taken everything I’ve ever worked for, and loved; in less than a one year time frame. My son is being lied to, and hearing others lying about me. That has become a constant in his life experience lately. And the stinger, over all the rest, his father has alienated us, I have not spoken to my sweet boy in a year. I know, personally, two of the worst parents I’ve met, have been through the CPS rigamoral, and both with extremely serious provable parental abusive cases- still….NEVER LOST THIER CHILDREN IN THE END.


I’m going through menopause,stress, depression, and now my body doesn’t function well enough to retain a full time job successfully. I am broken physically and emotionally, having no support from my family has been the worst experience of my life thus far. My family has condemned me, because individuals with a pinnochio nose a mile long, swindled the seemingly febel minded people in my life. The level of betrayal, loss, and loneliness I’ve suffered since I got into Oregon, has started a fire inside me. And being faced with the greatest, meanest, sneakiest, vile monstrosities on this dimension, the Phoenix waits anxious, but patient. Indeed, not one person I know can relate to my situation in such a capicity that would allow a perspective view. Or an understanding of my seriously grim storyline. Maybe I expect too much of my network. I don’t know if my posts are even looked at. I had a bigger turn out from old friends when I was in the hospital with cancer. My CHILD HAS BEEN TAKEN, NO PAPER TRAIL, ALIENATED, EMOTIONALLY ABUSED, LIED TO BY FAMILY, AND SEPERATED FROM ONE ANOTHER, AND ALL I WANT IS TO KNOW IM NOT ALONE. The day I stepped foot on Portland Oregon’s despicable-back-stabbing, LIBERAL AF soil, I WAS ALONE.

IN THE TWO YEARS I’VE BEEN OUT OF CALI, I’VE ONLY REALLY NEEDED A FRIEND, SOMEONE TO TALK TO, VENT TO, or assure that I’m not alone. Instead I feel forgotten about. It’s difficult to be in my skin right now, I’m so tired of fighting, I’m so afraid for my son’s emotional state, his trust issues will extend to family when it’s resolved. All for what? The worst possible outcome in most DHS cases, the child is harmed after being taken out of thier loving, fimilar home. And greedy, heartless, drones continue to deform the minds of many of America’s future leaders.

Please help bring Sebastian home

Please read and repost. No obligation to donate, I have many disturbing updates to blog later today. Please be aware that the government corrupted judicial system will be the demise of the overall sanity of families and children; causing damage beyond repair. These are the faces of the future of the world. And the judicial system is allowing our very own future leaders, to endure extreme heartache, betrayal and abandonment. How noncondusive to to the betterment of American future events and communications.

The amount of disregard for my son’s wellbeing and my emotional state, by the state of Oregon; is downright offensive. The months of anticipation to recieve a remanded verdict, was squashed the other day. Unfortunately I opened my email on my birthday to read the attached letters. It made me curl up like a baby and cry my eyes out like I hadn’t done in so long. My boy is not only ‘invisible’, but now I have this crap response to a clearly unlawful situation that cost me my life and my son’s life. His father has abusive tendencies. He was raised without his father, and distrusts, even hates women; he once confided to me. He also has not been in Sebastian’s life monetarily, or emotionally, or physically. The court dismissed my case as if I never came to Oregon with my son. They took no responsibility or action, based off my extremely poorly handled child welfare case. They didn’t want to change my verdict due to all the wrong actions taken against me by Washington County DHS. In doing so, they would have had countless inconsistencies and lies, not to mention, ill-filed documents; and many many unsubstantiated lies to base thier opinions on. I am, again, outraged. To know that I have to suffer this much by the hands of something so blatantly wrong and untruthful; is extremely sad, frustrating and dameaning. It’s as if I am in a foreign land;and have had my rights stripped of me and my child kidnapped and sold. I am in the process of writing a screen play, or book. I have been in constant persuit of anyone that will publish my story. And, going to begin again, trying to get any government officials to listen to me, and help me. Please help me with any resources or persons of interest to contact based on the needs I have now. Thank you so much ❤️